I can't believe that this time next week I'll be in the new house. I feel so full up with so many different emotions right now. I'm happy that I'm going to be living with my love and that I will begin medical school (say what?). I almost didn't ever expect this to happen. And now that it is all becoming a reality, it is hard to face it almost. While all this excitement exists, I am also scared as hell. I'm scared that I won't do well. What if it's super hard and I don't know anything? I'm scared about making new friends and keeping in touch with old ones. What will my life be like? Will there be time to enjoy it? I just have to keep reminding myself that people do this all the time. And if they can get through so can I. It's certainly not impossible. And I'm signing up for this voluntarily. I mean this is what I want to do with my life. I'm working towards my life goal and that feels so good to say and I'm sure it'll feel even better once I"m actually doing it. Just the initial adjustment will be difficult but so is every adjustment. There are always uncertainties with every new thing that's what adds to the excitement. So I just need to embrace it. Enjoy every moment of it while it's happening. Even if it's the worst day or shit is just hard. Just be thankful that I've been given this opportunity to live my dream of being a doctor and helping others, all side by side with my B. What more could I want? You can do this.
Letting go and moving on is always hard. This might be the easiest one so far though. I know I can always come back. And what I already have to look forward to is all I could ever ask for.
I just want to make a list of everything.
Things I'll miss:
-apartment in Boston and everything to do with it: looking out the window, making coffee and watching tv in the living room, hanging out in the bedroom, all of it
-people: I dont have a ton of friends but the ones I have are good quality (even though right now I am kind of annoyed with some, I still in general have had a good base); I wont be able to just call them up and hang out anymore
-free time: drinking beer, watching tv, going outside, reading, playing guitar, being on the computer, etc
-Boston: the T, the accents, the smells, the food, etc
Things I'm looking forward to:
-living in our first real place together and making it entirely ours; what a gift and how exciting to be able to see each other every day
-learning cool stuff: anatomy and everything about the body down to our cells, how we function and what that means or how to fix it when something goes wrong; fucking amazing that this information even exists and then that we keep it in our heads
-meeting some really cool people: i hope i find those I can connect with as my peers and those that will become my mentors where I can find inspiration to keep me strong
These few words cant express everything going on. But that's just as much as I can say for now. See you on the other side.
Letting go and moving on is always hard. This might be the easiest one so far though. I know I can always come back. And what I already have to look forward to is all I could ever ask for.
I just want to make a list of everything.
Things I'll miss:
-apartment in Boston and everything to do with it: looking out the window, making coffee and watching tv in the living room, hanging out in the bedroom, all of it
-people: I dont have a ton of friends but the ones I have are good quality (even though right now I am kind of annoyed with some, I still in general have had a good base); I wont be able to just call them up and hang out anymore
-free time: drinking beer, watching tv, going outside, reading, playing guitar, being on the computer, etc
-Boston: the T, the accents, the smells, the food, etc
Things I'm looking forward to:
-living in our first real place together and making it entirely ours; what a gift and how exciting to be able to see each other every day
-learning cool stuff: anatomy and everything about the body down to our cells, how we function and what that means or how to fix it when something goes wrong; fucking amazing that this information even exists and then that we keep it in our heads
-meeting some really cool people: i hope i find those I can connect with as my peers and those that will become my mentors where I can find inspiration to keep me strong
These few words cant express everything going on. But that's just as much as I can say for now. See you on the other side.
